Thursday, June 14, 2012

Oranges and there Benefits.

Weigh in 201
Had a great time with my brother and family. Happy Birthday to him. For his birthday he is off to Texas. If anyone would like to say a prayer for a safe trip be my guest.  My mom made green Chile cheese enchiladas. Which is one of my favorite meals that she makes! yum yum!
Today is a good day but i believe I'm getting my tooth pulled today. I will be eating light because I don't want to throw up from the anesthetic. I have my food plan for the day and some wiggle room for anything that may arise.

I have been craving oranges like crazy for the last few days! So I decided to do a little research.  What are the benefits of oranges?

One orange is rich in Vitamin C but, most of us know that. what does Vitamin C actually do? The vitamin C is a powerful antioxidant which boost the immune system. Vitamin C also helps the body to fight against infections.   I have always heard that Oranges are immune system boosters but, it was nice to find out that they also have compounds in them that are anti-inflammatory agents. Other than Vitamin C there are many other nutrients within an Orange such as; pectin, bile acids, Hesperetin, Narigenin, and many other Vitamins.  They have been known to lower blood pressure and cholesterol.  They are rich in dietary fiber and low in calories.  Pectin helps to protect the mucous membrane of the colon from exposure to toxins and will bind with cancer causing cells in the colon. Pectin has also shown to be an active blood cholesterol reducer.  It also contains Phytochemicals call Hesperetin and Narigenin which are flavanoids. The compounds are immune system boosters, and have anti-inflammatory characteristics as well. They also have Vitamin A which helps to maintain a healthy mucous membrane and helps the body to protect itself from lung and oral cavity cancers!  Oranges are also a good source of Vitamin B complex.  It also has other great minerals that our bodies need to function like potassium and calcium. Potassium is a part of cells and body fluids.  It helps to control heart rate and blood pressure.  
Overall they have been know to help in reduce risk for cancers, many chronic diseases, arthritis, obesity, and coronary heart disease.  
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Have a wonderful day! :)

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Lovely day, Lovely day.

Weigh in at 201.00

Still hanging around the same weight since monday. Good news Im doing pretty good. I have a cheat last night with my dad a half of a sandwich at Lee's. Yum yum. lol but other than that in plan. I wasnt stuffed just a cheat.  Had a great time with my dad.
Tonight I have a dentist app. that may lead to a tooth being pulled. I have weak teeth. Wich led to 12 route canals from the age of 11 on. Well the first one I ever got is done for. So here we go. I also have to get two of my route canals retreated. Its either that or pull them to. Its to bad I have weak teeth but things can always be worse. Im blessed in many ways and nobodies perfect. As far defects go, Ill take it lol.
Today I am on plan. I have planned out my food for the day and I have left some wiggle room for something else i might want today. I have pear and apple on the side. Just in case. :)
Today is also my brothers birthday! Happy Birthday James. :)

Love you brother!

In the end any day alive is a lovely day. :)

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Feeling pressure need to focus on today...

weigh in 200.6

  I weighed in this morning at 200.6. Hold on Jessica breathe, breathe, breathe.  I know its not a big deal weight fluctuates but its hard to keep that in my head.  Yesterday I was 200.0 now 200.6.  I also know that the last 2-3months I have been yoyoing up and down from 202-200 so what do I expect. I'm on plan of course but of course my body got used to the yo yo a bit. I just have to deal. Stay on plan that's the most important part.  I just need to focus on today. Today is what I have to work with.  Today is what counts.
    I had a great day yesterday!  I got to see my mom and spend time with her at her new place.  It was very nice. I'm really grateful to God I got that opportunity.  My mom and I don't always see eye to eye and we don't get to spend much time together either. It was very nice. :)
    Today I have mapped our my plan for food. I like snacks so a lot of my plan will be eaten individually not in one big meal. Or three meals. But like 6 tiny meals. :) I also have left about 300 Cal's unaccounted for so that I have some wiggle room. :)  My goal for today is to stay within my calories. Therefore staying on my plan. 

Have a great day!  

Monday, June 11, 2012

MOnday baby steps...

weigh in 200 even

This Photo does know justice for the beauty I witnessed.

I did a good job this weekend. I stayed within my calories pretty much and ate pretty healthy. Me and the fiance' even went to Black Angus. :) That was yummy.  I had a good weekend with him and wishing i was still there.

Right before the sun went down.

        The weekend started out a little bit crazy. I drove up to Bakersfield but ahd a huge detour! I got stuck in the Castaic Mountains due to a brush fire.  I was stuck in a piece of traffic for 3.5hrs and went two miles in that time. I watched a movie on my phone. Wich was called, "The New Muslim Cool" It was an interesting movie.  Then the Firemen closed of the freeway so I took my trusty little cumpass (iphone) and i mapped myself an alternate route.  It was 118miles out of the way. Wooh this was gonna be a day. I started driving through these winding roads and I suddenly had this weird feeling. I started to slow and look around realizing how beatiful and  gorgeous everything was. There were trees desert plants like yuccas.  They were everywhere!  I stopped on the sider to take a few pictures. It was aboslutely amazing! I couldnt beleive how at home I felt. I felt like I was in New Mexico on my way to Chillile.  It was such a great gift from God. I was annoyed that I had this detour but if it hadnt have been this way i could have never received this gift.  Then as i was driving i found a shorter short cut so it was a 40mile detour instead of 118... but i wouldnt have traded it for anyhting. :) 
     Had a great time with my fiance' hung out went out to eat and I ate pretty good.  I was by no means perfect but pretty good. :) I also discovered Trader Joe's Mochi Icecream yesterday! Holy Zola! Those things are delicous and 100cals a pop. : ) I had the Mango ones and I cant wait to try the strawberry and green tea flavors. :)
     Today I start my day with some Coffee and Mochi with a banana. Lol not the best breakfast but we are not perfect we are progressing. :) Progress not perfection.  I have planned most of my cals for the day already and have some left over for any unexpected or needed snack in the afternoon. :) Baby steps. I got stick to it.

Friday, June 8, 2012

baby steps into the weekend...

weigh 201

   Today is going to be a tough day. We won lunch at work so I am going to be having some sweets and some high calorie food but I'm still staying in plan. :) We got donuts and In-n-out Burger. I had my donut already. Ive decided I will participate in the lunch I will just get a protein burger and that's all. :)  The rest of the day will be fruits and veggies.
       I'm also pretty nervous about this weekend.  I am so insanely excited to see my fiance' but I'm afraid of my habits. I have a habit of eating whatever I want when I go up to visit him.  We also haven't seen each other in a month so I know I'm gonna feel really happy and may forget to think before I do.  I pray that I can keep my head leveled and stick to my plan. I am bringing my main meals with me and some snacks.  So if I can just keep a level head that should help me to stay on plan. I'm also going to try to blog and check my emails for my weight loss buddies so that I can keep my goals fresh in the front of my head. Wish me luck. :)

I think Ill be following coined phrases in my mind:

Easy does it.
One day at a time.

and my favorite prayer..

Grant me the Serenity,
To accept the things I can not change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference.

I find this prayer gives me strength, helps me to have willpower and to stay in control through my Higher power.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Baby steps day 2...

weigh in 202.00

          Good morning guys weighed in at 202.  I guess two days of completely on plan is working. Who would have thunk it? Jeez all i have on my mind is food. Like I literally just stared at my bag of strawberries for the last hour off and on.  All the while thinking, should I eat these now or later? When I should have thought. Am I hungry or bored?  I'm hungry. So lets do this. :)  Ha ha so funny how I think sometimes.  Maybe you can relate.  How I think to myself should I eat it or shouldn't I?  The thing is though, that question is valid but, its not enough.  One: I should ask am I hungry or am I bored? Two: This piece of nourishment, is it healthy and beneficial for my body? Three: This food, is it in plan?  If I can answer these questions and the answers are: I'm hungry, its healthy, and its in plan.  Then I should go for it guilt free. My problem is feeling guilty with just about anything.  The act of eating feels great feels like life and nourishment. Sometimes I even get a sort of high or mood boost.  Only after eating I feel guilty and resentful. So I need to take it slow.  Start with checking my motives.  Then make a decision and enjoy.   I believe food should be enjoyable that's why our Higher Power made food taste good. Although in the end it is nourishment and energy for our bodies. That's what it needs to be treated as. So today and forever more I will do my best to deal in one day at a time. I will work on balance today and the next.

My food plan for the day

86 Cal's leftover in case i feel hungry in the evening and i can have an orange or kiwi or something small. :)

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

do or die...


Ive been straying. I havent updated in a while.  I havent been eating the fruits and veggies that i should be. So this is me getting back on track. Trying, and thats all I can do is try my best. Today I am showing what my food plan is and I will stick to it.  The pictures below show me tracking, my food. This morning I was 203.  A week ago I saw 199.8.  I know that I dont have something wrong with me to where I cant lose weight. Its my actions and choices that are hindering me. So one day at a time.  Today I choose to be on plan. I ask God for strength and I choose to eat healthier than before.  I will be seeing my dad today. I usually end up eating over plan when I see him.  I have prepared myself with a cup of frosted mini wheats for our date. :) So i have tools and today i choose to use them.
    I need to get back into the mindset I started with last year.  Why am I doing this? Why do I care to do this?  There are alot of reasons for me to do this, but what are they?  I know I dont want diabetes or cancer.  My grammy died a couple years ago. May God rest her soul.  I was very close to her and I love her dearly.  I watched her slowly die and suffer from her diabetes.  She lost her toe. Wich turned into her foot loss. Wich turn into her leg amputation from he knee down.  She had open heart sugery and in the end had skeletal cancer.  She also had multiple vein surgurues due to poor circulation.  She was obese wich didnt help with her health at all.  She was diabetic and in the end also died with skeletal cancer.
     I recall her health not to judge my grammy but to learn from her.  It killed me inside to see the wreckage she had done to herself.  She was paying her dues for a life time of inhealthy eating habits and being a smoker for many years.  I dont want that to happen to me.  I dont want her to have gone through that in vain.  I dont want my family and friends to be there for me like that and watch me slowly die.  I want to learn from my grammy and live healthier.
      Im not losing this weight just to look better. Of course it is a plus, but the reason I was working so hard is for my health.  I want to haave energy and be strong and happy. :) I want to work on myself body/mind/spirit as a whole.  I have a better relationship with my higher power today.  I have lost 52lbs today.  My health is better today.  The fact is though I have improoved tremendously. I am not at my finish line yet.  I still have 63lbs to my goal weight.  I still dont excercize enough. I still dont eat healthy. 
    I also know this is progress not perfection.  So I am happy with the progress i have made. I am proud of what i have done.  I also want to keep moving forward though. :)  I want to keep healing my mind and spirit. I want to keep eating healthier and allowing my body to be healthier through weightloss and healthy eating habbits. So another day of progress for today. :)

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Finding your patterns.

weigh in 200.2

So today is a good day. :) I went to Alanon yesterday and therapy. Wich was great. :) Once again my TOM is playing a sick joke on me. lol  I have a pattern of not losing but easily gaining for about 3-5 days after my TOM.  I beleive that time period has begun. yay me... On a serious note.  The improtant thing is that I understand and am aware of this pattern in my body. It can be very discouraging for someone who doesnt realise there patterns.

Our bodies are not linear and they dont pretend to be.  We can do mathematical equations and due to calories vs calories out everything should be linear but, alas it is not.  We have hormones and bodily functions to interfere with that.  For example one of my other patterns is; an up down week.  For example: Lets say Sunday I weighed 201.8. The following day on Monday i weigh 201. Then Tuesday 200.2.  I can most definetly expect to be either 200.2 for a day or two or 201 for a day or two after that. If I have 3 or 4 great days of weightloss. My body likes to even out with some water weight held in for a couple days. (extra or steadfast, it holds)  These patterns can be bother some. The best thing to do is to note them and figure them out the best you can.  Then accept them and keep pushing forward.

Who knows? You could have a weird pattern like my brothers girlfriend. She has a pattern taht for 4-5 days after her TOM.  She can eat like a MAN. She go and scarf and scarf and scarf but, she gains nothing!!!!! Lucky her hahahaha. :) So take a look at your patterns and use them to your advantage.  For me my patterns aren't anything like this one. Although, because i know my patterns i dont feel horrible when i have a 3-5 days stall right after my TOM.

So my advice log your patterns note them and use them to benefit you. :) Wether it be in your Journey to Health or everyday life. It will benefit you to be in tune with yourself. :)

Have a great day! :)

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

1 year of my spiral

weigh in 200.2----> so close to Onederland!

   Good afternoon all I have stuck to my calories and am doing good. :) Havent mustered up the spunk for the gym yet. lol so boring but its a must so i need to get back into it. Today also marks my 1 year anniversary for living a new happier and healthier life.  This year has had its highs and its lows.  The truth is its been easy but times of struggle.  I have had days I really just want to say bullocks!  Then I think about all my hard work and the strength I have found in myself I never knew I had. The me I like more and more each day inside and out. : ) In this last year I have lost 44.8lbs through counting calories and making better healthier choices. I have gained loads of self esteem through meditation and therapy.  We all have our shortcomings and our strengths.  We all have weakness and pride. I have made the conscious decision to change and work on my weaknesses and shortcomings.  I have been working on myself body and mind.  I feel great to have reached yet another goal! My one  year Birthday! :)

Stick to it its worth it!

My favorite quote simple yet perfect for me. - "Never, never, never give up."- Winston Churchill


Monday, April 30, 2012

Reality vs. My perception.

Weigh in  201.

Hi everyone i hope all is well. We all know I have been going through a rough patch with my journey to health.  I started January out at 210.2 and now 4months in I am at 201.  9.2lbs in 4month isnt nothing. but for the last 2.5 months it has been nothing but maintaining at 201.8. I did so many things that i was taught not to do.  I have researched and learned so many things through out this journey and some how i let them go in many ways.  I put myself through a yoyo trend for 2 and a half months of 201.8-206. Its time to get my tools out of my toolbox and show myself how hard i have worked and get reinspired. :)
        So for the last week I have been on plan.  My fiance' is also on a journey to health wich helps tremendously! :) So im grateful to God for that. So we decided lets do 2 weeks no bread or grains. :) Had a cheat on friday and satruday. tiny little cheats and we agreed on it. But still doing great :) Today I will be starting up with my excercizing again. I know that will help tremendously as well. I have come so far and I am not giving up. I have so many tools and now im going to use them. Main thing baby steps and self control. Mind over matter. If i dont mind it doesnt matter. : )

I know I have been having an internal excuse of not seeing any pay off so today im doing some side by sides of old and new photos just so my brain can see it. :) they came out pretty good to. :) So here we go.

Me and my Lita about a year ago and 2nd photo me and Ophelia 4/28/12

Odlest to newest. (May have one backwards.) The difference though is huge! from a year ago till today how wonderful.
I really see the difference now and am soaring high. :)

1st photo from a little over a year ago. 2nd photo from 4/28/12

Up from the ashes...

It has been forever since i have posted! Shame on me!
lol i weighed in at 201lbs today. I have really been struggling with ymself and my healhty eating. This last week i have gotten back into the swing of things. :)

i have been eating lots of veggies and fruits. Then eating plenty of prtotein. :)

I will abe updating daily again. thank you to all of you who have missed my articles. :)

Friday, March 16, 2012

Friday Finally!

weigh in 202.4

So as of today i think my after TOM stall is over and im on my way back down! :)  I went to the gym Wed., Thurs., and I will be going today also. :) Monday and Tuesday I slacked lol.  Yesterday i did 1.5 miles on the treadmill and 1.0 mile on the elyptical. Then weight training on my arms and shoulders. I was also very proud of myself because i ran for to quarter mile sprints at 6mph. Only for about a minute or two each time but thats more than I have been able to do in the past. :)

My treadmill Stats

 Tuesday I also got my hair done with highlights. :)

Have a great weekend everyone! Be the best version of you!:)

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

off day...

weigh in 202.6

Yesterday was an off day. Maybe it was because day after TOm or daylight savings? I dont know but it was an off day. I felt weird and tired all day. I was hungry all day to. I was on plan till about 630-7pm last night. I was really hungry so I decided to get a snack after all i had a little over 100cals left.  So i got some pirates booty and a fruit rollup. Well that didnt fill me up. An hour later i ended up getting some chicken, beans, and rice.  I only got a little bit just enough to make me satisfied. Then I reviewed my nutrition for the day! My carbs were pretty high like 100 and my protein was sitting at like 14 for the day! no wonder i was so hungry! I didnt really even eat balanced yesterday lol. So today is a new day and hopefully a balanced one.  I didnt go to the gym yesterday.  Even though I should have. I hadnt planned on going because I had school and a meeting to go to right after. Before i went to school the meeting got cancelled so i decided oh ook gym time today, cool.  Well I did my quiz in class and did good.  Then during lecture I felt so tired I literally fell asleep in class. Then at break I decided I wasnt staying the rest of class. Also while driving out of the campus parking lot decided not to go work out. 
          Yesterday is gone and all I can do is learn from it. Today I will stay on plan and stay balanced. I will go to the gym and do my work out. :)

  • “We must be the change we wish to see in the world.” ~Mahatma Gandhi

  • “Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.” ~modified Serenity prayer

  • Monday, March 12, 2012

    inching through my journey.

    weigh in 201.8!!

    weigh in this morning 201.8!!!
    I had a good weekend. I did good on Friday and Sunday but cheated pretty bad on Saturday. Friday I was completely on plan and did not eat anything when I got to my fiance's house. I also went to the gym. I did 1.5 miles on the treadmil and 1.5miles on the elyptical!!! So I had a new best!! : )
             The weekend was a bit of a differnt story. I didnt end up going to the gym.  Saturday I went over plan.  I ate pasta it was delicous but I didnt count the calories at all.  Sunday I did good I had a helathy breakfast/brunch and a small dinner.  No gym due to cleaning and studying.

    Today my plan is to stick to my calorie plan and eat healthy. Today due to work, schoo, and a meeting. I wont be able to go to the gym but ill be back at the gym tomorrow!

    1-sitck to calorie plan
    2- eat healthy
    3- stay humble

    Friday, March 9, 2012

    Weekend... and travel

    weigh in 202.8

    Morning all!  I went to the gym yesterday and stayed on plan completly! :)

    At the gym I did 1 mile in 17min on the treadmill and 1 mile in 15min on the elyptical.  Then I did 50 situps blegh. I would have rather ran another mile. Im feeling good about myself today. :) I dont want to get cocky and have to remember to be humble.  When I get cockey about how long I have been on plan thats when I forget to use myt tools. I need to be as humble as possible this weekend with me going to the Darling Fiance's house.  I usually dont do that great with plan at his house. So this weekend I really have to pay attention. So ill do my best!

    Goals for today:

    1. Stay on plan! No matter what.
    2. Go to gym.
    3. Do 2.5 miles today.  1.25 on the treadmill and 1.25 on the elyptical.
    Woo hoo lets do it!

    Weekend goals:
    1. Stay on plan. No matter what!
    2. Cook healthy meals for myself.
    3. Excercize on saturday in some way.

  • “It is better to take many small steps in the right direction than to make a great leap forward only to stumble backward.” ~Old Chinese Proverb

  • Thursday, March 8, 2012

    Day 3 - mini restart

    Weigh in 203.0

       Woohoo last night i went to the gym!!! I was terrified.  There were a few reasons I was so fearful and nervous.  I hadnt been in like 6 months. I was thinking the whole time what if i cant even walk for 20min? I was afraid of a new gym to. I had gotten so comfy at LA Fitness.  I found out last night I really like 24Hour Fitness alot better. : ) 
            So what did I do at the gym?  I did the elyptical and the treadmill.  I did the treadmill at an average speed of three with an incline of 1.0 for about 18:00 min.  My goal on the treadmill was a mile and I did it.  Then on the elyptical I did about 10-12min.  My goal was also 1.0 mile on the elyptical and I did it!  So last night I did 2miles of training! :) tonight im gonna try for more. :)
             I stayed completly on plan yesterday no overage at all!!!!

    Todays goals:

    First Goal:  Stay on plan no matter what. Do it to the best of your ability.
    Second Goal: Go to gym. Try to do better than yesterday. :)
    Third Goal: Stay humble.

  • “Stand up to your obstacles and do something about them. You will find that they haven’t half the strength you think they have.” ~Norman Vincent Peale

  • Wednesday, March 7, 2012

    Cupcake Omelets!

    weigh in 203.4.

    So i saw a picture of something like this and Ive created my own recipe! In true me style I call them...

    Cupcake Omelets!!!

    1 roma tomato
    1/2 yellow onion
    1 avocado
    4 cloves of garlic
    1 green Bell Pepper
    6 eggs
    2.5 ounces Cheddar Cheese
    Turkey/Chicken deli sliced meat
    pepper and salt (to taste).

    1.  Dice Tomato, Onion, and Bell Pepper.  Put contents into a large bowl.
    2. Peel garlic.  Slice garlic into thin slices. Add to other veggies.
    3. Crack all 6 eggs into large bowl with veggie ingredients.
    4. Mix contents in bowl thoroughly and gently.
    5. Grate cheese into large bowl with all your ingredients.
    6. Add pepper and salt to your preference.
    7. Dice avocado into small pieces. Put into large bowl with other ingredients.
    8. Gently mix cheese and avocado into ingredients. Make sure it is mixed thoroughly.
    9.  Get a cupcake pan.  Use butter or oil to line each cupcake cup.  This will prevent sticking.
    10. take 1-2 pieces of your lunch meat and make a cupcake cup out of it. Line each cake cup in pan with lunch meat.
    11. Fill each cup with your ingredient filling.  make sure to add egg to the cups that seem dryer.
    12. cook for 15-25minutes. after 15minutes check on them every 2-3min.  When egg is ever so lightly golden brown on top.  Omelet cupcakes will be done.
    13. Enjoy!

    Would anyone like to know the aproximate calories for each of these lovely little omelet cupcakes?
    But how do you determine the calories?

    1. take each of your ingredients and see how many calories each has.-

    1 roma tomato- 22 cals
    1/2 yellow onion- 43cals
    1 avocado- 322cals
    4 cloves of garlic- 18cals
    1 green Bell Pepper- 24cals
    6 Large eggs- 407cals
    2.5 ounces Cheddar Cheese- 171cals
    Turkey/Chicken deli sliced meat- (11shaved slices) 120cals

    *Note- Meat and cheese cals will vary depending on wich you get.

    2. Take the total of all the ingredients.-


    3. Divide the total by the number quantity that your batch produced.

    My batch produced qty.11

    So 1127/11= 102.45

    4. Calorie amount for this batch.

    Aproximately 103cals per Omelet Cupcake! :) Dig In~!


    Day 2 of Mini restart.

    weigh in 203.4.

    Today is my second day of my mini restart day. I had 3 goals i had set myself to stick to.  First was to sign up for the gym and I did. :)  Second was to stick to plan wich i did stick to plan.  Third was to stick to my calories. I went 34cals over. It isnt horrible but its an overage and i dont want it to happen again.
         Im so glad I signed up for the gym again. :)

    March 7th goals.

    1st: I will stick to plan.
    2nd: I will stick to my calories to the T.
    3rd: I will go to the gym today and get reaquainted with a workout. :)

    These are my goals for the day and Im gonna do my best to accomplish them! :)

    Tuesday, March 6, 2012

    Mini Restart- Who's with me?

    weigh in 204.6

             Some of you may have noticed that I haven't been sticking to plan all that well.  I have found it so hard to stay on plan since the holidays.  I have posted as if I am doing great and been in denial a lot of the time. Today I am proclaiming a mini-restart.  I am going to pledge to be honest with you which will in turn allow me to be honest with myself.  It is so hard for me to look at this knowing how good i was doing, but I need to face it.  I have reached my mini goal of 50lbs lost.  Which is great but honestly it should have blown by a month or two ago.  I started 2012 off at 210. and now in the 3rd month of the year I am at 204.6 and its all my doing. At first I was blaming it on my metabolism slowing or maybe calorie counting wasn't working but, that was pure denial.  Calorie counting works no matter what.  Sometimes it needs to be changed up a bit but for me it was denial and cheating.  So today I'm coming clean and starting new.  I will be making an honest effort to stay true and to not allow myself to fall back into denial because we know its so easy. Here we go, my truth list.

    Truth one: I went over by a bit last night. only by less then 100 Cal's but it was still a cheat. I'm going to try so hard tonight not to go over and fight the urge.  Evenings are the hardest times for me and I need to remember to stay aware of that.

    Truth two:  Its time for me to get back to the gym. Tonight after work and therapy I will be going to take a look at 24hour Fitness and seeing how much a gym membership is.  Its time to get in shape and be good about my fitness.

    Truth three:  I need to stick to my caloric intake amount allotted to me.  Not even 1 calorie over is OK for me right now. I need to think of that limit line like a barbwire fence and stay right next to it but never touch it or try to climb over it.

    Truth four:  No matter what happens tonight, I will be back here tomorrow to tell you how it goes and how I did. No sugar coating allowed!.

    Have a wonderful day and wish me luck! I find lists help me alot! Try it out and see if it suits you to. :)

    “The greatest revolution of our generation is the discovery that human beings, by changing the inner attitudes of their minds, can change the outer aspects of their lives.” ~William James

    Tuesday, February 28, 2012

    2nd to last day of February.

    weigh in 203.8

    February Recap:
            This month was a tough month. I had some crazy cravings before TOM and after.  I started at 207.4 this month. So I lost 3.6lbs wich really isnt that great but its still a loss. I slacked off alot this month. Its a short month but its only short by two days.  I know where I went wrong and I know how to fix it. I have to know that I am strong enough to do this because I am.  I received my skirts that I am not allowing myself to wear until my goal of 199lbs! :)
             Through this month I also made it to a mini-goal of 50lbs! So I went to the Museum of Tolerence! It was very inciteful and such an amazing experience. I also got myself a few new pairs of pants. :)  To know that as of now I have gotten through 9months of a lifestyle change! I am almost to my 1 year anniversary! I have come so far and feel so good. Its amazing that I have been able to do this for this long. :) Heres to another month!

    March Hopes and Goals:

              I have few thoughts for march.  I know I want to stick to plan and be honest with myself with snacking because ive had a few days of oversnacking this month.  I also want to finally get under 200.  So here are my goals for March.  Although My plan for march may change in a couple days when March starts.  This is what Im thinking for my mini goals.

    1. Stick to plan
    2. Make it to 199lbs
    3. Try for 195lbs.
    4. But go for 5lbs lost.


    I'm through accepting limits, cause someone says they're so. Some things I cannot change but 'til I try I'll never know!" ~ Wicked ~

    Friday, February 24, 2012

    A new day...

    weigh in 204.

        So im starting to see that my weightloss is slowing way down. Im really not ready to start excecizing vigorously yet. I am walking more and going up and down stairs more and lots more movement. I have really made up my mind though that I wont be doing really long or planned out excercizing till this summer. I have about a month or two. lol then excercize.  I started this month out at 207.4 i am now at 204. I started January out at 209 and ended at 207.4. January was really my own fault wiith cheats. But February was almost complelty on plan. Sure a couple cheats but nothing big.  My goal was to be at 199 by the end of this month. I have 5 days to do it?  I doubt I can do it but Ill try my best.  I do want to look at my pattern and expect an attainable goal. So for the next 2 months I need to expect lower than if I was excercizing.  I want to expect 5lbs a month for the next two months and hope to go above and beyond. :)
           I also got a note from Loni that my two skirts are going in the mail today. :) So excited. A recap. Loni is the owner of Love to Love you clothing line. She designs and make all the clothes herself. She has been here along the way with anticipating for my goal skirts.  She just finished making my first two! Want to go check out her shop? click here.

    In case you forgot what my first two skirts look like here they are.

    Goal skirts for 199lbs.

    And dont forget summer is just around the corner. Its time to start eating your fruits and veggies again! Get ready for some great info on all your favorite fruits and veggies. I will be answering any questions you have like- Does spinach really clean you out?  Why do prunes make you poo?  What so good about a watermelon?

    Thursday, February 23, 2012

    Bucket list of life Goals

    weigh in 204!

        Woo hoo! Weighed in at 204 this morning.  I have 4 more pounds till Feb. goal and 6days to go. Lets do it! :)

        So with my goals of weightloss have come the want for myself to make all my goals come true.  Maybe they wont all come true but Im going to work hard for all of them. It seems I now know I deserve them. :)

              So this weekend I will be crossing one of the Bucket List. Godwilling my sister and I are going to the Museum of Tolerance in West LA! I have wanted to go here since I was in like 7th or 8th grade.   When I learned one of its main Exhibit explorations are all about the Holocaust.  Im so excited for the emotional experience I know it will be. :) I figured it was time to finally reward myself for my hard work. I will also be going Horseback riding on saturday. I was supposed to go Horseback riding 16lbs ago but instead have chosen to buy clothes whenever I have extra money. Well I am puting my foot DOWN! lol Im going Horseback riding and to the Museum. I will be crossing of two goals off my bucket list. :)

    I also plan on taking some progress pics. : )

    So Saturday and Sunday are planned out. :)

    Tuesday, February 21, 2012

    50lbs lost!!!!!

    Weigh in 204.4!

    As of today I am at 50.6lbs lost! Ive reached a new milestone and it feels great! I have reached my mini-goal of 50lbs lost! I cant beleive it! After all this hard work I have finally got to this huge milestone! :)
    Woo hoo! I now have 64.4lbs left to lose! :) Im getting closer and closer.  With all the research and tips that i have learned and am living by I am seeing results. :)

    Also I was able to order my next mini-goal prize! :) To see click here.

    Hope everyone is doing well!

    Monday, February 13, 2012

    Morning all the stall is over!

    weigh in 206.0

    Goodmorning all! Life has been a bit busy and crazy lately. Staying on plan and being quite strict with myself!  My goal is 199 by the end of February and Im doing all I can to make it. If I dont make it and have done all I can then fine. But I want to know I tried my best. :)

    I also got to order my next goal that I am 11lbs away from!  My next goal at 195lbs.  I cant wait! I ordered them because its going to take a few weeks for them to be made and by that time i should be at my goal! I will not wear them till I get to 195 though. That is most definetly what will keep me going strong as many of you know i have been waiting in anticipation for these skirts for months! lol and now its so close.  To think 3 months ago I still thought I may never get to Onederland but look Im 7lbs away and 11lbs from my first skirt goal!

    Do you remember my next goal?

    So to recap here are my next couple rewards goals with Loni's lovely skirts!
    1. 195lbs get two skirts!
    2. 180lbs get two skirts!
    3. 160lbs get two skirts!
    4. 140lbs goal do whatever you want!!! LOL

    For my first two skirts I decided on....

    Enchanted forest Ruffle Skirt
    Pac Man Ruffle Bum Skirt
    dont forget if you ever want to go checkout Loni's shop. She has great service and is the sweetest thing I've ever met! click here.

    Cant wait!
    Todays reasons to stay on plan?

    1. I want my skirts!
    2. I want Onederland!

    Thursday, February 9, 2012

    holding on because its worth it!

    weigh in 206.8!

    I did it! I finally lost! Im so happy and cant wait to stay on plan! :)

    Today I have a salad recipe that my aunt made last night! It was so delicous loved it!

    Its Broccoli Salad:

    1 head broccoli
    1 piece of garlic clove
    1 serving raisons
    1 ounce walnuts
    1 ounce queso fresco
    a pinch of cilantro

    Step1-   Thinly slice your brocoli into strips.

    Step 2- toss in 1 serving of raisons (about 45 raisons)

    Step3- toss in 1 ounce walnut halves

    Step 4- Mince one piece of a clove of garlic

    Step5- Crumble one ounce of queso fresco on salad

    Step 6- mix.
    Step 7- Enjoy!

    Wednesday, February 8, 2012

    hangin on the edge by a thread...

    Weigh in 207.8

           This weekend was good. I got to spend some time with my darling Fiance'!  I spent time with my mom to. :) We had a nice BBQ for Superbowl. Really a last minute thing. (But man Martin can BBQ some amazing Ribs!) It was delicous chicken breast and ribs. Then mom made her famous potato salad. The only potato salad that I truely love! :) So it was a pretty good weekend. I have some family things going on but its all in God's hands.
                  Im on my 2nd week of being at the same weight and being on plan. I have been on plan for almost two weeks and soon it will be the beggining of my third week.
                 Yesterday I went over my calories by a little and sunday and monday to. Im really stressed out by some stuff in my life. Honestly yesterday I was about ready to say F*** this. I was ready to give up. I havent lost in over 2 weeks. I gained 4ounces and Im so stressed and feel like Im going crazy.  I havent journaled in over a week. I feel like everything is falling upart in my life.
          Then I was reading my favorite comic this morning. Its called Chinchat comics. click here to read.  It was all about how things can always get worse. I realized that even though some really horrible things are going on in my life. I still have so much to be thankful for. Even if they are small things. I am healthy, alive, in school, I have my mom, I have 2 amazing brothers, and an amazing Fiance'!  I have so much family its ridiculous and they all love me and are there for me.  Im doing great in one of the hardest classes I have ever taken. (Medical Terminology) I have a job. Thank you God for all the many blessings!

    Then I also saw this:

    My ticker from 3FC that tracks my weightloss
     I have worked so hard to get to this point! Am I really just going to give it all up? No I know that I have to be stricter though.  I know I need to start excercizing again. I need to live in the solution not the problem. I will not allow the demons of problems to rule my life. I have a choice. Whatever I choose is my choice. I choose happiness and to be healthy. So Im going to be proactiv.  I have to work for it. :)

    First Step:
    • Goto work and school
    • study hard
    • control my eating
    • stay at my calorie limit
    • smile
    • Be grateful to God
    Today I will own my First Step!

    Thursday, February 2, 2012

    MY TOM stall is over!

    weigh in 206.6!

    finally i had a loss today! I lost .8. I am on plan for the 9th day in a row. :) I beleive that I am on the edge of breaking but i know i have to keep pushing. im trying to push on keep myself up.  Im excited to ahve started school but stressed at the same time. lol i have to get back to studying and just wanted to check in. have a great time!

    Tuesday, January 31, 2012

    School has Begun

    Weigh in 207.4

    I started school yesterday. This week has been so crazy with get ready for school and everything. lol I had my first class of Medical Terminology last night. It was fun. I think this class is going to be alot of fun. It will be tough but fun.  I decided to hold off on Anatomy/Physiology till next semester so that I could focus well on Med. Term.  Today is my free day in the week wich i will be using to study.  Wed. i have my Human Sexuality course. Thursday I have English critical thinking. : )


    Here is a recap of the last weeks events:

    Today I made corn masa homemade pizzas:
    1/4 cup corn masa dough- 110 cals
    Tomato sauce 2tsp- 4cals
    1/2ounce ground beef- 15cals
    Mozzerella Cheese 1/8 ounce- 11cals
    total per pizza- 140

    Me and Jacquelene(My sissy) played Mancala for the first time in years. It was alot of fun. I also taught her how to play Phase 10. So we had a nice relaxing evening of fun. :)  

    Last butnot least My wonderfully all natural Honeycomb. I finally found it a few weeks ago.  I have been eating way to much of it lol. Its so delicous and so good for me. :) If you dont remember how good honey is go check out this!
    1 tablespoon of honey has 64 calories, and one tablespoon of sugar has 46 calories.  The difference other than your thinking honey has more calories?  Well honey is gold! Many ancient civilizations even used honey as gold or a form of money.  There are many religous backgrounds that state the healing power of honey.  Islam, Christianity, and more.  The bee so small and insignificant is more important than most people know.
    Honeys many benefits:  Cancer prevention, honey has carcinogen-preventing and anti-tumour properties in it.  It is an Immune system builder and all around wellness booster, and boosts metabolism. If you have arthritus you can eat honey and it will reduce joint pain, if you have diabetes you can eat honey and it will actually stabilize your sugar. Honey really does sooth a sore throat and heal cuts and burns. The point? Eat more honey!!!!

    Wednesday, January 25, 2012

    school school school

    weigh in 208.4

    Today I am on plan. yesterday I did good and stayed on plan as well. I almost broke last night. My sister was eating late and we were watching TV in my room. Her pasta smelt so good. I chose a hot apple cider instead! : ) Yay for my good decision. The hot cider made me feel full and was in my calorie allotment.  So one of my new hunger busters is hot cider. It works so well and is so yummy. :)

    I start school in less than a week. I'm excited but nervous also. as of right now I am taking Pharmacology and Human sexuality.  I am still on a wait list for English 101 and Anatomy/Physiology. We will see what happens. : ) It will be a tough but thrilling semester. :)

    thats about it for news today. hope everything is well with everyone.

    A couple of quotes for some inspiration (you know i love quotes):

    Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time.
    Thomas A. Edison

    In eating, a third of the stomach should be filled with food, a third with drink and the rest left empty.

    Never, never, never quit.
    Winston Churchill

    Man does not live by bread alone.

    The more difficulties one has to encounter, within and without, the more significant and the higher in inspiration his life will be.
    Horace Bushnell

    You miss 100% of the shots you don't take.
    Wayne Gretzky

    Hope is like the sun, which, as we journey toward it, casts the shadow of our burden behind us.
    Samuel Smiles